I cannot believe my eyes This isn't real Flashback to the dawn of my memory Before my first steps, I knew you as an enemy Red marks across my backside I hid from the world, ’cuz they said it was a felony Never squealed, kept my lips sealed Act tough, never tell ’em how you feel I can't tell the fake smiles from the real and I’m covered in these scars that’ll never fully heal My nerves are dead, I feel no more It doesn't feel normal if my body isn’t sore Strike of the left hand, sting to the face “Don’t you ever fucking cry when you’re living in my place” All I got were threats, all I ever felt Were the bruises on my body from the buckle of the belt All I ever wanted was escape from this hell That you put me in, gloves off, ring the bell Blood words dripping from your fangs Venomous lies course my veins Cursing your delusional cognitions As they drain me of my ambitions You ever feel what it’s like to show up at school Black and blue, mad at you, what’s the excuse? Teachers dig deep to try and find out who hit you I said I fell, and never told them the truth Held it in, deep down, bottled it up This damn close to an eruption So now you’re picking up the scattered pieces of me Couldn't save myself from the corruption You never know a snake 'til it's fangs are in your arteries I’m thick-skinned, but it’s tearing out the heart in me All my pain lead to elevated artistry I’ve dealt with the devil but my soul is still bartering Picture this, a moment of true clarity Your shit parenting caused a family disparity Somehow survived without the solidarity I made it on my own, no god damn charity My feet won't run My body numb Can't run from the thoughts inside my head (Mentally divided I'm traveling time) All I see The air I breathe It’s just a blink in my memory (To pick the lock from the cell inside of my mind) Blood words dripping from your fangs Venomous lies course my veins Cursing your delusional cognitions As they drain me of my ambitions Opening up my eyes to the lies you hide behind Stealin’ from the clock, the crime of a lifetime I finally found my mind; it disappeared with a poof I finally found the root truth, root truth, root truth Mentally divided I'm traveling time To pick the lock from the cell inside of my mind My feet won't run My body numb Can't run from the thoughts inside my head (Mentally divided I'm traveling time) All I see The air I breathe It’s just a blink in my memory (To pick the lock from the cell inside of my mind) Truth Root truth Mentally divided I’m traveling time To pick the lock from the cell inside of my mind Just a blink in my memory Mentally divided I’m traveling time

Tap into my vein so I can’t feel the pain Shut out this pain, I might blow out my brains Tap into my vein so I can’t feel the pain Shut out this pain, I might blow out my brains Tap into my vein so I won’t feel this pain Hope I refrain from blowing out my brains Tap into my vein so I can’t feel the pain Shut out this pain, I might blow out my brains right here right now Falling For the body of a vixen, Thinking with my head but it's not my decision Innocent If there was a sign I must have missed it, Thought I was blind turns out I'm masochistic I see Now more than before That I had no idea what she had in store Evil Always tries to follow me, then it swallows me It's in my head like neurobiology I'm sick Of going to work every day, slavin away, minimum wage, to watch you blow it away, I'm tired Of the same old routine Same old fights, mundane bullshit I can't Take it any longer I think I need to leave, with the red I see Rage Next time I disagree, somebody please intervene Mentality rotten look what it's gotten me All I know is this lie is bleeding me dry Every time the last time, I hope I wake up alive The way I live is just not right Giving in, this is killing me inside Day and night, I struggle to fight Once again, I Wake up, die, eat, sleep, die Wake up Feelin’ a fist in my chest A sudden shortness of breath, counting the seconds I have left Anxiety Taking me by the brain I relapse into the pain Falling back into the same Breakdown Facing a shattered mirror, given into fear, cause self destruction has appeared Suspected of living with depression, damage physically reflecting Leaves a permanent impression It's over; you have no options anymore No more lies to hide behind; the truth is knocking at your door Doom Disengaged from the weight on me Driven to insanity draining my humanity Die To be honest I'm pissed, in fits Of rage each page we turn I burn I lit the flames, 'cuz I'm calling it quits from the pain I can't take it anymore All I know is this lie is bleeding me dry Every time the last time, I hope I wake up alive The way I live is just not right Giving in, this is killing me inside Day and night, I struggle to fight Once again, I Wake up, die, eat, sleep, die I've eaten my fair share of shit for this to fall to pieces So quickly, so easy am I to return to the chase This is the living definition of insanity This feeling that is driving me I just pray that by the grace of a might-be god That I am able to somehow, hold onto the wheel and drive (Wake up, Die, Eat, Die, Work, Die, Eat, Sleep, Die) Tap into my vein so I can’t feel the pain Shut out this pain, I might blow out my brains Tap into my vein so I can’t feel the pain Shut out this pain, I might blow out my brains right here right now The way I live is just not right Giving in, this is killing me inside Day and night, I struggle to fight Once again, I Wake up, die, eat, sleep, die